There is a silence
in thrusting
in unpacking cigarettes
in crossed legs
in never wanting (to know) love
This day
he calls you a flower
Tomorrow
he calls you nothing
There is a silence
in interlocking glances
like clinking shot glasses
like fucking someone nameless
like fucking
Tonight you'll watch a weed grow
and know it is a metaphor
and clip it's beauty
but leave the root
I sat in Starbucks waiting for you, two cigarettes in hand.
One for me and one for the you I knew wouldnt show, so I smoked that one too.
You were too busy coughing up line graphs with undefined roots
Because your body never adapted well to being used or hung over.
Inhaling smoke rings, I became your pacemaker,
Setting irregular rhythms for your heart to tap dance to.
My lungs writhe inside my chest, causing your heart to murmur.
I am the angel behind love kills, feeding each bumbum with tawdry adoration.
Now, I lay, half torn and half untouched, in a bed that I didnt mean to make,
Waiting for the day my lungs
You brought me rays of light when I couldnt see
Because your fatal beauty blinded me
And now Im feeling wordless
And worthless
So please breathe into me
And I promise to be yours for an eternity
Ill let you own me
Because my love for you will never fade
Will never fray
Like the hems on my jeans with the heart lace on it
The ones I could never throw away
And you made me this way
So dont blame me for this. Its all because of you
Because the way you smooth the wrinkles of my day away
Makes me want to thank you for being
You are the sweet scent of comfort
You are my Egyptian cotton sheets that neve
Im sinking in silence like quicksand,
but I know better than to panic,
so I watch time etch lines in my hand.
Im getting a feel for the lay of the land
in the absence of the tick, tock, tick.
Sinking silently, forever in quicksand,
I was beginning to think this was planned,
but theres no point questioning the intrinsic,
Or time stops etching lines in your hand.
This lack of purpose makes it hard to stand.
I never thought emptiness could be so thick,
But Im sinking in silence like quicksand,
So Im being proved wrong every second.
Im no longer convinced this is a trick;
The evidence of time etch
Grandfather Clock, sing me a song
About the good old days
When battles fought were battles won
And our flag waved through the haze
Grandfather Clock, they say you lie,
That peace has never reigned
I sing to you in the hopes of
Sifting out the disdained
I understand youre telling time
Just, please, answer me this:
Do we fight because we hate
Or because blood is bliss?
Hey, can you hear me echoing
Within your hollow corpse?
This is the song of modern times
That dies before its source.
War And Nothing's . . . by Sarcasmkillz, literature
Literature
War And Nothing's . . .
I'm afraid words won't help me win this war;
And that I've spent too much time counting syllables,
And finding rhymes for words that weren't meant to be rhymed.
Words like "love" and "pain"
Because they have nothing to do with
Doves from above, or
The rain in Spain,
Which sucks because I've definitely phrased that sentiment before.
I've packed up my or-gas-masks next to my ve-gas ones
In case of odd and unanticipated circumstances.
In case of want for,
Well,
Anything odd an unanticipated.
And I have my PB & J's,
And ten-gallon hat,
And my overly practiced snarl-- I hope it'll fend off enemies
Because
Words are the only weapo
What I'm Afraid of Most is by Sarcasmkillz, literature
Literature
What I'm Afraid of Most is
1. That the ceiling will forget how to hold and fall beneath itself,
Revealing how much truth lives in cliches. "The sky is falling," they'll say.
But it isn't. But your heart rate, your spackled and re-tiled face,
Your make-believe-this-house-is-a-home house is. And then you
2. Die. I asked you if you've eaten today. You say yes, but you're sunken cheeks;
Brittle fingertips (someone should tell them they've been smoking too much);
Your ejaculated rib cages wishing they had something to protect like
A stomach, say differently. And in your eyes I see that you're afraid too, just not of
The same things I am.
3. That you forgot I exis
I called God a liar, and then I smote him
And made peanut butter and jelly sandwiches
My personal saviour instead of His son.
"Apples never fall to far from the tree," They say.
He reminded me of how He died on the cross for me.
And I reminded Him of how He's never been able to let that go.
And how He's been wallowing in His own self-righteousness
While I watched myself burn, and sink, and rise to surface
Just to rinse. wash. and repeat.
The trouble with faith is,
Everyone thinks it has something to do with praying,
And falling on bended knee, and being forgiven
When really, it has everything to do with not downing that
bottle
There is a silence
in thrusting
in unpacking cigarettes
in crossed legs
in never wanting (to know) love
This day
he calls you a flower
Tomorrow
he calls you nothing
There is a silence
in interlocking glances
like clinking shot glasses
like fucking someone nameless
like fucking
Tonight you'll watch a weed grow
and know it is a metaphor
and clip it's beauty
but leave the root
I sat in Starbucks waiting for you, two cigarettes in hand.
One for me and one for the you I knew wouldnt show, so I smoked that one too.
You were too busy coughing up line graphs with undefined roots
Because your body never adapted well to being used or hung over.
Inhaling smoke rings, I became your pacemaker,
Setting irregular rhythms for your heart to tap dance to.
My lungs writhe inside my chest, causing your heart to murmur.
I am the angel behind love kills, feeding each bumbum with tawdry adoration.
Now, I lay, half torn and half untouched, in a bed that I didnt mean to make,
Waiting for the day my lungs
You brought me rays of light when I couldnt see
Because your fatal beauty blinded me
And now Im feeling wordless
And worthless
So please breathe into me
And I promise to be yours for an eternity
Ill let you own me
Because my love for you will never fade
Will never fray
Like the hems on my jeans with the heart lace on it
The ones I could never throw away
And you made me this way
So dont blame me for this. Its all because of you
Because the way you smooth the wrinkles of my day away
Makes me want to thank you for being
You are the sweet scent of comfort
You are my Egyptian cotton sheets that neve
Im sinking in silence like quicksand,
but I know better than to panic,
so I watch time etch lines in my hand.
Im getting a feel for the lay of the land
in the absence of the tick, tock, tick.
Sinking silently, forever in quicksand,
I was beginning to think this was planned,
but theres no point questioning the intrinsic,
Or time stops etching lines in your hand.
This lack of purpose makes it hard to stand.
I never thought emptiness could be so thick,
But Im sinking in silence like quicksand,
So Im being proved wrong every second.
Im no longer convinced this is a trick;
The evidence of time etch
Grandfather Clock, sing me a song
About the good old days
When battles fought were battles won
And our flag waved through the haze
Grandfather Clock, they say you lie,
That peace has never reigned
I sing to you in the hopes of
Sifting out the disdained
I understand youre telling time
Just, please, answer me this:
Do we fight because we hate
Or because blood is bliss?
Hey, can you hear me echoing
Within your hollow corpse?
This is the song of modern times
That dies before its source.
War And Nothing's . . . by Sarcasmkillz, literature
Literature
War And Nothing's . . .
I'm afraid words won't help me win this war;
And that I've spent too much time counting syllables,
And finding rhymes for words that weren't meant to be rhymed.
Words like "love" and "pain"
Because they have nothing to do with
Doves from above, or
The rain in Spain,
Which sucks because I've definitely phrased that sentiment before.
I've packed up my or-gas-masks next to my ve-gas ones
In case of odd and unanticipated circumstances.
In case of want for,
Well,
Anything odd an unanticipated.
And I have my PB & J's,
And ten-gallon hat,
And my overly practiced snarl-- I hope it'll fend off enemies
Because
Words are the only weapo
What I'm Afraid of Most is by Sarcasmkillz, literature
Literature
What I'm Afraid of Most is
1. That the ceiling will forget how to hold and fall beneath itself,
Revealing how much truth lives in cliches. "The sky is falling," they'll say.
But it isn't. But your heart rate, your spackled and re-tiled face,
Your make-believe-this-house-is-a-home house is. And then you
2. Die. I asked you if you've eaten today. You say yes, but you're sunken cheeks;
Brittle fingertips (someone should tell them they've been smoking too much);
Your ejaculated rib cages wishing they had something to protect like
A stomach, say differently. And in your eyes I see that you're afraid too, just not of
The same things I am.
3. That you forgot I exis
I called God a liar, and then I smote him
And made peanut butter and jelly sandwiches
My personal saviour instead of His son.
"Apples never fall to far from the tree," They say.
He reminded me of how He died on the cross for me.
And I reminded Him of how He's never been able to let that go.
And how He's been wallowing in His own self-righteousness
While I watched myself burn, and sink, and rise to surface
Just to rinse. wash. and repeat.
The trouble with faith is,
Everyone thinks it has something to do with praying,
And falling on bended knee, and being forgiven
When really, it has everything to do with not downing that
bottle
the first time i'm in a position to make a decision and affect change in my life, i'm too indecisive and confused to do so. maybe i'll write a poem about it.
maybe....maybe, i'll even submit something soon. if you fancy that.